i feel terrible for bursting my own bubble.
burst charlene's bubble too. really sorry girl :(
hate it when i get super duper excited and then get disappointed in the end.

this next paragraph is about adam. if you're sick of me going on and on and on and on about adam, im warning you, skip this entire paragraph! SKIP IT! and i cant believe adam's bottom two tonight! seriously?!
but it made me realise how everything isn't about winning. even if goakley (and i hope he will win if adam doesnt) wins, i still love adam the same. and i really wonder why im so drawn to and keep talking about a guy who's god-knows how many miles away from where i am and doesnt even know i exist. i guess, there's just nothing else for me to talk about is there? me and my pathetic life. who cares. adam ♥♥♥

my mama was watching switching channels and switched to "the biggest loser" yeahhh, they're showing it on the hallmark channel. freak, how can someone gain 17 pounds in one weeek, utter crazyness. and freak, that guy wasn't voted out. again, this episode made me realise how everything isn't about winning. and back to my mama, after the show she told me: let's challenge. see who can lose the most weight in one month! HAHHHHH! of course im brave enough to take up the challenge. 19 and young versus the stay-at-home-all-day mama! i'll tell u who's the biggest loser come end may. pls remind me of this in any case i forget! hahhh, me and my mother's random plans. (which always turns out to fail. shhhhhh!)

the wait is still killing me. and everyone else's happiness is making it worse.
argghhhh, the feeling is so so terrible! it's not your fault though.

jean: he's (obama) so handsome! HAHHAHAHHAAH!